Study; Charismatic movement
Child of the Charismatic's
Child of the Charismatics is a typical story of the
price being paid, for the oneness in the movement of the
The following is not my personal story, however many
of the problems illustrated by the writer, have been a part of my
life as well, it is for this reason that I know these things are
true and are being practiced on a wide scale today by many
charismatic ministries, and specially in the Para ministries, where
the founder is the leader, the prophet, the teacher and the
evangelist, also the pastor and the apostle.
In these settings, many people get hurt and being put
aside, simply because they do not fully support the view of the
leader, or can not follow the leader because of unbiblical
practices, or anything else that is not inline with their
* Child of the
The Presence of the Lord
Betrayal in the Church
Opposition & Obstacles
Something Better than
Something is Happening
Training by Trial
What is the Work of the
To See with Spiritual Eyes
the Charismatic Movement
I was saved
when I was 8 years old (in 1964) and filled with the Holy Spirit
when I was 13 years old. My parents joined a Charismatic retreat
camp as staff members when I was 15. We lived and worked at the
retreat camp through the peak years of the Charismatic Renewal.
During the summers there were camp revival meetings morning and
evening, every day. During the winter we hosted weekend
retreats. We also participated in conferences and seminars in
other parts of the country, and my family attended the historic
Charismatic Conference on the Holy Spirit in Minneapolis,
Minnesota. We experienced all the highlights and intensity of
that great renewal beginning with the early days of home
fellowships in the late 60's, through the peak years of revival
camps and conferences (1970 to 1975) and then through the waning
years of the late 70's.
I have been a servant of the Charismatic organizatons and
churches most of my life. As a teenager, I cleaned the bathrooms
and babysat the children. As an adult, I sewed and cleaned and
cooked and taught and worked and organized and served in every
possible way that I could put my energy into serving the
churches where I attended. Eventually I was employed at a
Charismatic church and served every department through my
The Presence of the
I remember the excitement of the early Charismatic renewal,
but I have also remembered something else which many have
forgotten or possibly they never knew about it... I remember the
Presence of the Lord during the early 70's especially. However,
since 1975 I have noticed the vital awareness of the Presence of
the Lord diminish until, in the past five years or more I have
not been able to find much if any of that very special
refreshing in church meetings at all.
This statement is not something that can be proven. How can
we prove whether the Presence of the Lord is greater or lesser,
present or not present? How do we know whether one person is
being blessed during church worship while another is not, and
what are the reasons?
Therefore, my statement about the Presence of the Lord is
very subjective. It is as subjective as my personal testimony of
salvation. We know that our personal testimony of salvation does
have truth and it does have power. So, I speak only as one who
was there, in the beginning of the Charismatic renewal and who
experienced the vital moments of that renewal. I have talked
with others who confirm my testimony and say that this is their
testimony as well. Those of us who were part of the Charismatic
renewal in the early 1970's remember something that is missing
now. We remember something better.
I am only a servant. I do not have any material possessions
and I don't have any fame or fortune. I am poor. I don't have a
husband or children. I was never married. So, I have had nothing
in all these years, that others have had. Maybe that is why I
remembered what was truly important about the Charismatic move
of God... because the sweet Presence of the Lord during those
years was and is the great joy I have known in my life, and He
has been my motivation.
If the fact that I am a nobody with nothing is the reason why
I have clearly remembered the most vital part of the Charismatic
renewal, then perhaps I am blessed more than most.
Eventually I became very desperate for the Presence of the
Lord in worship. At the same time, I was involved in a spiritual
battle at my church. It is not my intention to share details of
my experience in this book, because I don't want to speak
against any particular church or ministry. Besides, I think that
my experience is actually rather generic. It happens to many...
Someone envied my position in a church ministry, then
manipulated a way to take over, lied a little and forced me to
the point where I resigned from the ministry.
Then, the same people continued to hinder another project I
was working on that was for missions. They did everything
possible to discourage and hinder and put obstacles in my path
so that I was very discouraged about finishing it, but I did
finish it. One of the people who was working against me was a
pastor of the church, the other was an elder. The senior pastor
supported them in all decisions.
The project was harmless: I was working on a
beginner English reading program
for missionaries to use overseas. There was no reason to oppose
my work, which I was doing alone on my own time under the
direction of professional people who approved and supervised my
work... but when and where my pastors could bring opposition,
Opposition & Obstacles
The Apostle Paul does warn about situations such as this...
Romans 16:17-20 "I urge you, brothers, to watch out
for those who cause divisions and put obstacles in your way that
are contrary to the teaching you have learned. Keep away from
them. For such people are not serving our Lord Christ, but their
The obstacles I encountered were unnecessary and very hurtful
personally. As a result of this experience, I learned how much a
church can hurt their people. And, it was this experience that
forced me to see things I had not been willing to see before. I
saw that I was not the only one who was being hurt. I saw
selfishness and control. Until I personally was wounded, I had
not known these things were going on but after that I did know,
and I could not ignore it. I also could not trust my pastors any
Prior to working at the church, I worked for my father for 12
years. He is a human resources consultant and I had assisted him
with many seminars on people management. I knew all the
leadership tests, all the personality studies... I had read the
professional HR magazines and I was very well qualified to
identify "management style."
During the time that these conflicts were going on at church,
I had also been reading articles about conflict management. This
was not intentional. I would find articles while waiting in a
doctor's office, or someone would hand me a magazine to read.
These things were accidentally coming across my path. I also
completed a 20 hour correspondence course on conflict and stress
management on the job. This correspondence course was for the
purpose of renewing my nursing license.
In all these things I was reading, I was amazed to see that
"the world" knew more about developing healthy professional
relationships than the church did!
How can the church ever become a "family" if we are not able
to develop normal, healthy relationships as we work together in
the house of the Lord? How can we set an example for the world
if we do not know how to manage conflicts fairly among
ourselves? How is it possible for Christians to excuse our
selfish behavior? How will the world know we are Christians if
we are unable to love one another?
Something Better than the Baptism!
The Charismatic renewal was a revival of the baptism in the
Holy Spirit, but it was not a renewal of love. The Charismatics
ultimately fulfilled Paul's prophecy that without love, the
gifts of the Holy Spirit are not profitable. Without love we are
a clanging gong and a sounding cymbal (I Cor. 13:1)
Actually, I think that the current condition of the
Charismatic churches was inevitable. I Corinthians 13 may very
well have been a prophecy of what would happen to the
Charismatics eventually. There were problems with control and
leadership issues from the beginning. And, as the glory of God's
Presence faded into the 70's, those problems gradually got worse
and worse. In the past 30 years I have personally been part of
four different Charismatic churches that went through severe
church splits and scandal. I had nothing to do with any of it; I
was not in a position to be involved. In addition, we have seen
national Charismatic leaders bring disgrace upon the church.
I think that God may have intentionally planned or allowed
for the Charismatics to take the progressive path that they
have, in order to reveal a better way. For example, we know that
the Old Testament Law was a "setup" in order to reveal that
human effort was impossible and that salvation through Jesus
Christ is necessary. The cross of Jesus Christ is a far better
covenant than the Law.
I think the Charismatic renewal was possibly a "setup" to
show that the power of God without the love of God is a terrible
thing. Even Lucifer still has the power that God initially gave
him, but of what value is it? Anything that opposes the love of
God becomes hideous and evil.
The Charismatic renewal was what God intended it to be: it
was glorious. And, I believe that even now it is exactly what
God intended it to be. He wants to show Christians the dangers
that are inherent in the spiritual gifts.
Remember... Since the Garden of Eden men and women have been
learning about the knowledge of good and evil. And, in the past
30 years, the Church has learned that the gifts of the Holy
Spirit are good, but we need something better! So, God is now
going to reveal to us the ultimate power, the ultimate weapon...
God has already begun to reveal the knowledge of God's love to
the wise leaders and teachers of the Church. This is something
that is even better than good, and it is coming.
I am convinced that the next outpouring of God's Presence
will be one of Love. Darkness has increased so much upon the
earth that God is pulling out His last and greatest weapon. The
small fires of God's sweet renewal have been sparking in some
places, and God has been drawing His exiles out of the
wilderness. Something is happening.
Foundations: Training by Trial
Many people are trained and ready for this new
outpouring, but they don't know it because they have been so
persecuted and misunderstood they are afraid they are not wanted
or needed by anyone. Actually, God has been preparing these
wounded ones to minister His love in the next visitation. They
just don't know, yet, what they have been prepared for. They
don't know that they are like Joseph in prison, who was raised
up overnight to be premier of Egypt. When Joseph was installed
in his new position, he was fully trained for the job. But, how
could he have known his future... as he ate his prison swill for
dinner every night?
God will need people who are specially trained for the work
of the ministry. They are the leaders which He has been
preparing. Why do I know this? Because the Godly leaders of the
Charismatic renewal were prepared in just the same way, and they
were ready and available when needed. Those mature Charismatic
leaders went through their own trial by fire before being raised
up to lead the renewal that began in the late 1960's. Many of
those men and women of God are retired now and some are in
The Charismatic ministries are mostly in the hands of second
and third generation leaders at this time, who did not
experience the spiritually difficult years of "training" in the
60's. The hardships then were foundational for the work of God
that was so evident in the 70's.
Perhaps this is what happening again, now. I believe that
many dedicated Christians have been experiencing trials in the
past decade, which will prepare them to minister the agape love
of God in the next decade.
God is preparing people for the work of the ministry... but,
what does this mean?
The best way to illustrate the "work of the ministry" is to
tell you what it is NOT. The work of the ministry does not
involve dishing up soup, handing out bread, stacking used
clothing on shelves, marching in parades, manning carnival
booths and supervising the moon walk at the harvest festival.
All of these activities are typical of churches now-a-days. We
are running rodeos, car washes, concerts, exercise classes,
homeless outposts, community education classes, and a host of
relief and benevolence efforts. All of this is very good. And,
the world could be doing it just as well as we are. In fact, the
world is doing it just as well as we are. The "work of the
ministry" should not be just busy work!
I know that these activities do bring newcomers and
unchurched people to the church. That's good! Or is it? Maybe it
is not good, if the churches are not prepared to minister to
these new people! If we don't actually have any spiritual manna
to offer our visitors, why did we invite them? This is a
frightening question, actually.
with Spiritual Eyes
2Kings 6:17 And Elisha prayed, and said, LORD,
I pray thee, open his eyes, that he may see. And the LORD opened
the eyes of the young man; and he saw: and, behold, the mountain
was full of horses and chariots of fire round about Elisha.
Elisha knew about the army that was around him. He was aware
of it, and possibly he even saw it. The young man who was with
Elisha did not see the spiritual armies that protected the
prophet. He only saw the natural circumstances, which were
As Christians, our life is not entirely natural. We have
engaged in a spiritual battle. We desire to have heaven on
earth, but the Bible says that will not happen until Jesus
returns to earth. The battle rages until then. If we are to be
effective as Christians, we must have spiritual eyes to see the
battle that we are part of. Discernment is a spiritual gift - it
is the ability to accurately discern the spiritual nature of
I Cor. 12:4-11 Now there are varieties of gifts, but the same
Spirit; and there are varieties of services, but the same Lord;
and there are varieties of activities, but it is the same God
who activates all of them in everyone. To each is given the
manifestation of the Spirit for the common good. To one is given
through the Spirit the utterance of wisdom, and to another the
utterance of knowledge according to the same Spirit, to another
faith by the same Spirit, to another gifts of healing by the one
Spirit, to another the working of miracles, to another prophecy,
to another the discernment of spirits, to another various kinds
of tongues, to another the interpretation of tongues. All these
are activated by one and the same Spirit, who allots to each one
individually just as the Spirit chooses.
Some people do not need any encouragement but are always in
"spiritual mode." There are Christians who see angels and demons
around every corner, or think they do. Maybe they do. But mostly
they seem to be very busy seeing things.
Notice that the prophet Elisha and the young man saw the same
thing - they saw warriors protecting them. Discernment is not an
individual thing, it is mutual and meets agreement with other
Christians who sense the same things. It takes time and
patience, trial and error to learn how to be spiritually
discerning. There is a maturing process involved.
Elisha saw the armies because he lived in that spiritual
place of discernment; he was accustomed to it by long practice.
The young man was learning what Elisha himself had learned as a
young apprentice under the training of Elijah. None of us are
born with this discernment but the Bible does say that we can
desire all the spiritual gifts and we can ask God for wisdom:
I James 1:5-6 If any of you is lacking in wisdom, ask God,
who gives to all generously and ungrudgingly, and it will be
given you. But ask in faith, never doubting, for the one who
doubts is like a wave of the sea, driven and tossed by the wind;
Hosea 14:9 - Those who are wise understand these things;
those who are discerning know them. For the ways of the Lord are
right, and the upright walk in them, but transgressors stumble
It is good to seek for spiritual gifts. It is wise to ask God
for wisdom. Our spiritual growth must begin with these desires.
We must seek for spiritual awareness, ask for it, exercise our
faith and work for it. We are not
spiritually mature until we do. This passage in Hebrews is very
Hebrews 5:13-14 For every one that useth milk is unskilful in
the word of righteousness: for he is a babe. But strong meat
belongeth to them that are of full age, even those who by reason
of use have their senses exercised to discern both good and
We are learning what good and evil are. It is the task that
is set before us. We dare not waste our opportunity. God needs
workers now. He needs people who can see with spiritual eyes and
operate in the spiritual gifts as Elisha did. At first, Elisha's
servant saw only half of what was happening on the mountainside
- Elisha saw everything.
If you had stood beside Elisha that day, what would you have
Discovering True Spiritual Ministry
I have seen the congregation so wrapped up in
busy, busy, busy activity that people barely have time for
themselves or for family. There is no doubt in fact, that
families are being neglected. Friendship evangelism with
co-workers and neighbors is being neglected. Bible study is
being neglected, and home fellowship. We have not developed our
spiritual ministry skills! Let the world run the car washes and
the moon walk... we need to learn to be ministers! We need to
see the world with spiritual eyes.
The workers of the harvest are spiritual
workers. God is calling for spiritual workers. God needs
apostles, prophets, teachers, evangelists, pastors, and more.
The ministry gifts should be abundant and commonplace within the
church. There should be gifted ministers at many levels of
maturity who are being encouraged to develop their spiritual
The church and the world need more people who are genuinely
spiritual and discerning. Do you desire holiness in your own
life? Do you crave a greater knowledge of the love of God? Are
you looking for something better?
I Corinthians 12:28-31 "And God hath set some in the
church: first apostles, secondarily prophets, thirdly teachers,
after that miracle workers, then those with gifts of healing,
helpers, administrators, and those with diversity of tongues.
Are all apostles? Are all prophets? Are all teachers? Are all
workers of miracles? Have all the gifts of healing? Do all speak
with tongues? Do all interpret? But covet earnestly the best
Ministry of Hope